Friday, November 19, 2010

Through the Fire

Be "Mindful"...we hear this all the time, some take the time to try and figure out the how's and some even the whys of that word. Then there are those of us that have mastered it to some degree and have seen the transformation from dark to Light. For some the road is as simple as acting "as if " the trick being to stay the course, easier said than done ironically. In saying I have entered into a state of mastering is simply to say that I acknowledge it is all brought about in HIS time, not mine and I recognize how vast a course any stage can be. God has always liked to boot me in the ass for lack of a better term, there isn't one. I humbly acknowledge that it takes that to get my full and rapt attention sometimes. I am one to take emotions and thoughts to an extreme, that is my comfort zone which is hard for many to grasp, I like the trenches and there is no fear for me there.
Living in the present moment affords me many choices on any given day to act or react in a way that can build a bridge or tear one down, it is left up to me. Living in the moment challenges me minute by minute to grasp a moment and squeeze the juice right out of it and I do. Doing this repeatedly makes life rather fluid and I can no longer do it comfortably any other way. When I find myself swimming against the tide or "white knuckling" ANYTHING, I MUST pause to remember self sabotage is not an uncommon practice in this human form. I am here to Love and to learn, teaching and giving of oneself is a means to an end in the best possible form...it is proof of a life well lived, a life lived in the moments we are talking of.
Epiphanies equal change, often times as they permeate our Psyche and spill into our hearts, presumably making the heart larger...they bring along tremendous pain.
That tremendous pain will then often catapult us into a higher place, a place free of a need to judge, a place where only the things built on, around or with love matter.
Ask a mother that has lost a child what a handful of moments are worth. How about posing the same question to a woman left alone to raise three young boys when her husband dies without warning due to a twist of fate.
Let us ponder a couple deeply in love after being reunited in their later years, they go on to marry and see a whole new life before them at a time when many are resigning themselves to closing out their lives. Imagine what value is placed on their "moments"...Now imagine that same couple finding out six weeks into their heaven on earth finding out the other has a terminal illness. Moments are all they have...if it wasn't their truth before it has certainly become their bittersweet truth now, hasn't it?
Every day, all over the world we live...consciously or unconsciously...the choice is yours, really. Knowing you have this choice why would you choose anything other than joy? I encourage you with all my heart to live from your heart without reservation, without revisiting yesterday...without dread for things that have not happened. I can promise you this, living this way you will live with a sense of wonder and gratitude, you will feel everything and I offer this to you...there IS no other way.
My Love to you comes out with Light and powerful intention...find your peace and give from it freely
Nakupenda,
Malaika

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Of Saviors

The beauty of this Life is far beyond anything I could have choreographed, beyond anything I could have imagined even. Learning to love this big Love, this Love that is clearly divinity in it's purest form has delighted my soul endlessly. Should I pass forward on this night I will have shone as my truest self leaving only books unwritten not words unsaid nor love unleashed.
My husband, my true partner and I share a heart it seems at times and for that I am eternally grateful. Had he, my great father in heaven chosen not to pound me and pummel me at times by my own will I would not be the person I am today. The soul that I am within this vessel would not have found it's way back to my Beloved. God has given me so much in polishing my edges and my Life now is spent sharing who I am as this Tribe begins to congregate and this Life becomes richer.
Yes, I was saved and then Life began in earnest knowing that not only was every hair on my head counted but loved. The very same woman that lived much as a victim for many a year no longer settles for less than what the Lord would have for me. My journey toward my husband complete my journey with my husband has begun.
Why all beautiful stories must be visited by tragedy remains a mystery to many but as I have indicated so many times in my writings, I know longer question my God. Although I trust him and don't question him, I have as of late cried to him for a miracle. I cry to him still and some night I ask him to simply cover me in the knowledge that all will be well.
My husband, this man that delights me with the Irish twinkle I never fail to miss in his eyes...is ill and my heart is heavy. I ask that you pray for him. Pray for him for the man that he is, for the life he has lived and the selfless way he has conducted his life after suffering his own horrors for some years. A different road is often chosen by a lesser man...my husbands choices spoke of the spirit that lies within him in this earthly packaging. A miracle is due here, I believe...I humbly ask our Lord and I hope you will too.
We have many years ahead to love one another and give OF ourselves, that is our desire and has always been our calling.
God Bless you all my friends, my Tribe members...like speaks to like and you are never alone.
Iluminatio Mea Dominus...
I leave you in light
Nakupenda,
Sharon ...Malaika