There are many days like today where I find myself wandering off again in my mind...to Africa.
It has become so easy to do and it brings with it a peace and a sense of self confidence that had not been an abundant resource until I made the decision to follow my calling. It is simply part of me today as it was yesterday... as is Africa somehow.
As I have mentioned before I am aware of how hard this work will be but I stand firm in my belief the Lord will provide the strength I need if and when my step falters. The mission is mine, it is now at the core of my being. As a child I knew I would do this...it has come up again and again throughout my life and left me with a deep sense of longing each and every time.
There was a vast gaping hole deep inside that I could not fill. I spent 40 some odd years trying...
My children have been and will always be a very big part of me and have taught me love. With the exception of Madison they are grown now and off to their own adventures as they define them and then redefine them as we all do. They are strong and filled with character, my pride in them is immense...my respect profound. It is my deep hope that they will be proud that their momma has found her way finally to her soul's desire, her purpose. Perhaps in the beginning it will be incomprehensible to them as it may be to others. Hopefully with time they will come to understand and respect that it is the right decision for me and for Madison. The lessons she will learn will be of a magnitude she deserves, she has a thirst that can not be satisfied here.
The time is drawing near for me to step into my new life without reservation and chart my course guided by my Lord, my God. He has been trying to get me to live authentically for a very, very long time and with age has come courage, with sorrow, compassion and with nearly dying, the commitment to live.
It is my soul's purpose and my mission statement to comfort those that have no hope of their own, to assure them that hope is for them too. I am ready to write that on the fine parchment I mentioned in an earlier post. It is my Mission to bring hope to those that have none.
As I ponder here with you my reader, my friend I am becoming more and more attuned to the beautiful but pained Country that I long to touch. We will heal each other Africa and I...
mimi nakupenda!
Malaika~
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